All words and photography © Nina Nixon
At the beginning of last year I decided it was the time in my life to be 'more courageous' - I turned forty, which scared the hell out of me to be honest, but I made it...had survived it through that (what I thought) awful year. Little did I know that turning forty was a pretty darn good year, the worst was yet to come. Well it was a year with a thirteen in it. .a daily, constant reminder - 2013.
Back to January 2013 and the moment I decided I wasn't going to be scared any more. I was going to put my foot down and stop shying away from the unknown - I was going to take each opportunity presented in front me and give it a go. What could go wrong?
Well in truth a whole lot or 'wrong' happened last year, but it wasn't my doing, not my fault. I just had to offer shoulders and support - I'm very good at that.
Sometimes you just have to roll with the punches and hope for the best. In the past few months there have been times when I've wondered if life would like to chuck a few more things at us (as a family)...just to make sure we were paying attention.
I'm not very open at doing the whole personal thing - this is my happy space, a place to escape the crappity crap - but to myself I've needed to write these words down so I will never forget. Even if on the outside it does sound very cryptic.
To sum things up stuff happens for a bloody good reason....and because I'm privy to know better things are coming. A lot needed leaving behind, but we had to follow the process and that always takes time. Most of all though, without my knowing, I have been very, very courageous...and it feels good.
It's taken a while but because 'being courageous' has had such a positive impact on me I've decided that 2014 is the year to start 'being more'.
...that and the knowing 'what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger'.
Here's to 2014, the weekend and much, much more.
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